No filter

today…I cooked a great meal, Helped out where I could. I am reading a book on the 12 steps and Buddhism.

I didn’t respond to my ex and gave his stuff back through his mom. That’s a big one

It’s beautiful out here.

I Took this a little bit back and WOW

Into the Wild🌱

I am beyond willing to let go of every attachment to anything besides a connection that is divine in my life. Into the wild I happily go. I have beat myself up long enough and I accept who I am .

It is the fall that preps the winner in the long run. Acceptance that I mess up daily, and some days are crap, but there’s beauty everywhere if you look. And the knowing from within that in our own way we are all a little wild

Epiphany

I fake my confidence in hopes of being more attractive to my partner. I am missing something within that allows me to feel lovable. If i can’t fully believe that myself then i attract only those that truly see me in the good/great times. When I am experiencing lows then i am left to myself, and sadly it’s really hard to sit with. If I can help someone in a low I try to. Maybe too hard.

Punching Air

I am at war with myself over so many things. Not only is addiction hard, but a struggling relationship is hard Hardest of all is being a present mom while fighting daily with the above 2. I feel so beat and down right now, and I am pretty certain that’s exactly as it should be. I am in the middle of saving myself while also saving a relationship that has been stuck in a fucking loop. —I am thankful for my life, my health, and my strength. The goals I wish to achieve in the very near future are sobriety , healthy relationships full of genuine love, and to be in the path of my purpose. ——❤️